I’ve been aware for a long time the importance of gratitude, however, it sometimes felt to me like automatic responses rather than truly embodying it. I’ve done this myself – list things I’m grateful for with half of a heart as if it is what I’m supposed to say rather than truly feeling it.
Recently I went through a period of extreme chronic pain. I tried various treatments – chiropractic, essential oils, herbs and supplements with very little relief. Since I also meditate regularly and do a process of letting go of what might be blocking me from feeling authentic and happy, I felt I was needing to just embrace the pain and love it for whatever lessons it was presenting to me even though I did not understand what those lessons necessarily were.
One morning I awoke in pain and went and sat in the chair in my room that looks out at my yard. It is also where I do meditation. I was feeling extremely frustrated. As I sat watching the dove on her nest, the word GRATITUDE emblazoned across my mind. My mind immediately said – yeah right – I’m grateful for this pain – not! I breathed into my heart center and this wisdom came forth – Don’t be grateful for specific things – just simply embody gratitude. So I did – it was an amazing experience – I filled with tears of joy and felt myself be embraced in a cocoon of love and gratitude. Since that day almost 2 weeks ago my pain has decreased 80-90%. I am doing more loving things for myself and feel now that I am gratitude – rather than striving to be grateful. Hmmm.